So, as many of you know, I have struggled with crack addiction for many years. It started when I was about 17. I've had a few gaps of sobriety over the years, but overall my addiction has gotten progressively worse.
When I got pregnant with Ryker I knew I had to quit. I talked to my Dr. about it, and she agreed. With my baby as my motivation I was able to quit cold-turkey. I am proud to say I didn't use crack during my entire pregnancy. I thought I had kicked the habit for good.
But, when I stopped nursing I quickly fell into my old ways. When I fell, I fell hard. I found myself not only using socially, but I actually began purchasing it myself and using at home alone. I felt terrible, but I thought I wasn't hurting anyone other than myself.
It doesn't help that so many of my friends and family are also addicted. They're always flaunting it in my face! I always give in.
When I found out I was pregnant again, I thought I'd be able to just stop cold-turkey again. I did, for about three months, but I'm embarrassed to say that I've slipped a few times since. The last time I used crack was this week. I told myself it would be the last time ever, but I'm scared that I won't have the strength to be strong.
By the way...my crack is Diet Coke.
10 years ago
6 comments:
Sorry I am one of the family members who is addicted! I can't stop!
I have the same problem. I stopped while I was pregnant. But then I became sleep deprived as soon as I delivered, and fell back into my old ways. Avery is now sleeping through the night. So I am going to quit. I am down to one a day. Today I have only had 1/2 one. Tomorrow I am hoping not to drink any.
Maybe you should stop buying it and putting it in your garage for your junky Mom. Also, I thought you were doing cocaine-free crack now anyway.
If crack can help keep the baby zombie do it what is the worse of two evils. hahaha just kidding!
keep zombie baby away
sorry for the error
LOL... I was freaked out when I first read this. Which I'm sure was the point. My crack is Oreos.
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